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Trauma, Homelessness and Meiosis

(this is a work-in-progress piece) As stated in Psychology Today: "Tom Regehr of CAST Canada considers trauma to be most often the root cause of homelessness, and that most cases of homelessness result from a series of losses, so severe and betraying, that these individuals cannot even tolerate the idea of hope.  Furthermore, homelessness itself can lead to further trauma. The loss of a home is often accompanied by loss of community, possessions, and security. Regehr states that regarding the homeless, there may be those with severe and persistent mental illness or those who have experienced multiple traumas, and that what homeless individuals have in common is an internal, ongoing terror, as well as  loneliness , despair,  fear , and dread. " Since homelessness can cause further trauma both as a result of its very nature, and by exposing the individual to dangerous situations, it is important to consider trauma-specific services to help families and indivi...
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FEAR

I wonder about the guy standing in the median strip at that traffic light, or the genuine buskers on the corner of 17th and Walnut by the old Capital One cafe. The one with the sign that says "Made You Look," because they built the new and improved one across the street on the opposite corner. I wonder who among them is, or has been, homeless-even if temporarily. I wonder if they feel or felt the fear and anxiety and the uncertainty. The shakes and the tremors. I realized that when in a situation that can't necessarily be explained, and really isn't truly your fault, there's no one or nothing to turn to. I called a million people desperately wishing they knew something, secretly, about what happened, but no one came clean. I called for help--a place to stay, maybe a monetary contribution, if you will, while seeking a safe place to stay. Some were somewhat receptive, others not so much. I called people who are used to a certain level of wealth--former clients o...

What It Was Like to Be In a Homeless-Like Situation

I don't know what it's like to live in a shelter, or completely on the street. But, I do know what it's like to sleep in a van, have no restroom at my convenience, or enough money to eat. I know what it's like to live in fear, to shake and tremble, live in high anxiety and not know what the next hour or day will bring. And I know what it was like to have to ask for money--something I just never did. Not even from my own family because we didn't really have any. I know what it's like to be forced into a situation beyond my control without any idea what to do about it other than use my resources to the best of my abilities. Fortunately, I had a computer and wi-fi exists, and places like Starbucks, Whole Foods Market, Barnes and Noble and the public library are there for 'free' wi-fi. (Except most people feel obligated to purchase something, other than at the library) By the way, in Philadelphia, the 30t Street train station is open 24 hours, but it...

FTM: Women in Vans

(Sharon Renee Cole--AKA Erin Vans) Henry There's a female-to-male transperson in Philadelphia who was in the running to be a judge for the court of common please. Henry is his name. Earlier this year, it was a big deal around here in the fifth largest city in the U.S. Somewhere along the line, I found out he spent a short time living in a van. It was so long ago, some who might've crossed paths with him back then may not even recognize him today. He identified as a lesbian then. He had a partner. They both wanted to escape the Midwest and, in a dream-like fashion, take to the roads in their van, pull up on the West Coast with the sun rising and magically set roots down in The Bay Area.  They wanted San Francisco proper, but knew it would be too expensive. Here are a few responses to questions I asked: "So it's true, you lived in a van," I posited. "When was this and why?" I lived in a van for a couple of months in the Bay Area. I ...

Women in Vans-The Beginning, The Middle, and The End

Welcome to Women in Vans--a blog about women who've stayed in vans. Really lived in them, overnight and all, through breakfast, lunch and dinner, for a period of time ,whether by choice or not. They know where the public restrooms are at every hour. They've been to the train stations open all night. They've rushed into Starbucks, asked for the code (at Starbucks requiring codes for restrooms). And, they found out recently that, due to an amendment, homeless people can use Starbucks' restrooms  without actually purchasing anything. They might've stayed up all night crying, wondering how they wound up in a van, shaking, trembling, out in the cold. Fearful. My hope for all Women in Vans is that there is a beginning, a middle and an end to this kind of thing. I found myself living in a van with all of my belongings for a short period of time, a month-and-a-half to be exact. It wasn't a choice. A series of unfortunate events landed me there, sleeping upright i...